FIC: Living with Holmes (Sherlock Holmes)

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Title: Life with Holmes
Author: alexcat
Fandom: Sherlock Holmes
Type: General
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: I do not own them nor do I profit from their use.
Warnings: None
Characters: Watson, Holmes
Archive: OEAM, Alex’s Story Book, Ao3
Author’s Note: Written for the May Writer’s Circle – Regrets.
Spoilers: No
Summary: Watson has few regrets.

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Regrets?

Living with Holmes is sometimes an exercise in regret.

He is difficult, willful, obnoxious, arrogant, unfeeling… shall I go on? He is a reflection of the evil men and the monsters he hunts and brings to justice, whether it’s legal justice or just desserts.

I’m not sure he has his own moral compass. Actually I am sure. I am his moral compass. I tell him what a man should do, how a man should act, what a man should feel. Without me, the best he can do is Mycroft and I’m not sure that Mycroft is any different from Holmes.

What do I regret? Not knowing him before. I wonder if he was this wounded spirit when he was younger… I often ask myself if I could have made him different if I’d been his pal as a boy. Perhaps I give myself too much credit. I did not help my own brother, after all, as he sank into alcohol addiction. Why would I think I could save anyone else?

Do I regret moving in with Holmes and becoming his associate? No. Not for a single second. That is the one thing I’ve done right.

~end~